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I found a lot of photos I shot over de past couple of years, which has encouraged me to sort them out and post the best ones. I'll be doing so the next few weeks. I feel kinda bad I neglected my hobby and haven't kept my deviantart up to date with my work. Anyhow. What happened happened. On to the future!

Hello there!!

It's been a while since the last time I've been here. Quite a long while I might say. About 5 months? I don't have a clue why. It's not that I didn't have enough time. About 3 of those 5 months were during the summer holidays. My most inactive period of the year. Anyway. Nuff said.

Despite that, some big changes happened to me recently. About 2 months ago I started university. I really really enjoy it! I totally had enough of high school. The first term has almost come to an end and I've got some exams coming up. Though I only just started, it seems as though I've gone to university for ages!

Something else has changed as well! I met this really amazing girl! Coincidentally we've been together for about 2 months as well. When I started typing this journal, I thought I'd tell about her in greater detail, but I decided not to.

Although all these great things happened to me, I also experienced some difficulties along the way, but nothing worth mentioning.

While typing this, all my previous journal entries are displayed on the right of my screen. It's kinda funny to read them. For example, about a year ago in one of them I wrote about my first schoolday of my final year at highschool, which I did for the second time. It all seems like yesterday, but also like ages ago. How confusing I must sound right now.

I have been thinking lately about what I wanted to do with my life. It's not that easy, I can tell you that. I thought about detectives devoting years of their lives trying to catch just one serial killer. Is that really how these people want to spend their lives? I certainly don't.

I have seen a movie about a man who runs into an old college roommate, whose family has died in a planecrash. He collapsed as a result of a trauma or something like that. Understandable. I thought about that as well. I mean, one day your life is perfect, while the next day everything can be ruined.

People don't realize their happiness until it's gone.

I'm really happy with myself going to university and even more with my new girlfriend. And I hope I can enjoy my life, like I can right now, for many years to come!

And what's the point of reading this terribly interesting journal you might ask? I don't know. See it as a 'hey, I'm not dead yet!' message.

I've been thinking lately. A lot I might say. Though I should be really busy learning for my exams and stressing out and stuff, I'm basically doing quite the opposite. I know I failed them last year, and have to pass them now, but still, I don't feel this urge to do so like I always used to have when testweeks were approaching.

I'm really really really looking forward to Thursday afternoon 16.30. School will be over forever! University, here I come! After passing those damn exams. But I know I will.

One of those things I was thinking about lately. I live in a quiet neighbourhood, and in my street nothing ever happens really. Until yesterday. A scooter got hit by a car. Ambulance and police were there and all. Not really anything special, except for the fact that I could watch it all from my own bedroom. My camera was within reachable distance (read: right next to me), so I snapped a couple of pictures. My mom came up and asked me what I was thinking taking pictures from that accident.

That made me think. Why the hell should'nt I take pictures? I know it sucks for that person on the scooter, but hey, it wasn't my fault, now was it? Why can't I take pictures from accidents? It already happened anyway.

Omg. I can't remember whether it's "shouldn't" or "should'nt".

About school again. I've come up with a possible answer to my question about my lack of motivation. Maybe it's just TOO BLOODY BORING!! Or then again, it might be just me. I'm really looking forward to getting started with something new. Meeting new people, being in a new environment, new classes.. University!

My new source of inspiration!

I must admit, writing this all down, al my thoughts, it really helps! I don't care if anyone reads this. It's just for me. And for the feeling of not having this typed out for nothing, I'll just post it here.

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See? It's up there! But DON'T read it!

Just felt like writing something again, though I know nobody will ever read it. But that's fine. I don't care. Go on with your lives. I'll just pretend I don't exist.

What I was thinking was, that everybody is just doing something. I mean, they're doing whatever they think is best. All people are just 'human'. And they got into certain positions based either on luck or hard work. Bush for example. The worst person you can think of is now boss of the US, again. And a lot of people are effected by his every day rituals. If he decides to think 'screw the world', people all over the globe'll notice. But if someone unimportant, like some underpaid officeworker, decides to quit doing what he has to do, no one will notice.

My point being, everyone is just human and tries to make the best of it. And I definitely think there are people who are working their asses off but just can't seem to get any luck at all. I can imagine people working for minimum wage might just for once want to spend their holidays somewhere else than being at home, barely having enough money to keep their heads above water.

Cruel world it is.